We were days away from our embryo transfer day, my protocol turned into the following:

Estradoil 2mg 5 times daily
Progesterone in oil 1ml in PM daily
Baby aspirin daily
Many, many supplements

I was eating healthy; I met with my spiritual healer, who helped me with my anxiety and made me feel comfortable again in my body. I informed her about the pit in my stomach and my constant anxiety about this transfer. I was so nervous. I had every reason to be, but I was so hard on myself that I didn’t let myself feel. I remained strong. I practiced many methods:

Affirmations
Mediation
Tapping
Peaceful scenery mediation
Yoga (legs up on the wall)
Long peaceful walks
Eating healthy, estrogen-based foods
Self-care (facial, pedicure, beach days)

I took the week off of work leading to the days of my transfer to remain stress-free. It was a very productive self-care week. I felt great for most of the day until it was quiet. That moment that was quiet, I would go to the store or make sure the TV or music was playing daily. I didn’t want to be in my thoughts. In couldn’t handle the quiet.

Jun 1st, EMBRYO TRANSFER DAY!

Ohhhh, I felt sick the morning of.

On the walk to the clinic from the parking lot we saw an orange butterfly! We knew Yvette was with us. She walked with us all the way to the entrance of the clinic. She definetly gave me so much reassurance.

I couldn’t get right how much water to drink; I kept urinating and forgetting that I needed a semi-full bladder. We got to the clinic at 11:15am, and I still had to wait another 20 minutes and that led to the point where I was going to urinate on myself.

Most of my focus was on having to urinate, so I didn’t spend much time thinking about the transfer. I held tighlty onto my green aventurine and rose quartz crystals. During one of the healing sessions, we blessed all the staff and the clinic and brought so much blessing and gold light into the room and our embryo. During the embryo transfer, I held my Husband’s hand and we saw the little air bubbles enter my uterus confirming the embryo had been inserted.

We did it! We did our 2nd transfer! We transferred a 4AA embryo, our 5AA that was thawed didn’t make it, so the doctor thinks it could’ve been due to a chromosome abnormality, but either way we transferred a healthy embryo.

Now comes the undesirable anxiety that will make me dread the following 11 days of my life until we do our HCG bloodwork.

On June 12th, we will know if our implantation was successful, but I already tell myself that i’m pregnant!