Self,

You’ve been through a lot. What happened to your daughter is not your fault.

You have sat down and thought to yourself so many times, “How could I have possibly known to look for this if I didn’t have the education?”

You are not a Doctor, and this was your first time being pregnant. If the Doctor didn’t provide you with the appropriate information, then it is them to blame, not yourself.

Yvette loves you, she doesn’t blame you at all for what happened to her. You treated this pregnancy with perfection. You did everything the doctors told you to do. You ate healthy as hell. Girl, you only had ice cream once in the five months. You put yourself on bed rest when you were told to do so. You went to the pool when you were told to do so by your Doctor. You began walking again very short distances. You said your affirmations, manifestations and meditated. You sang “You are my sunshine” to your belly and repeatedly asked Yvette to keep holding on.

You don’t deserve to be so hard on yourself. You judged yourself tremendously for what happened to you instead of giving yourself grace. You don’t have to be so hard on yourself. The world is already hard enough on you.

I’m sorry for how I treated you. I’m sorry for neglecting you.

You are so strong. Look at how far you’ve gotten with the very minimal help of others.

You are making Yvette so proud in the Heavens. She’s rooting for you to be great.

You can’t continue to blame yourself anymore. You have to forgive yourself for what happened. This emotional pain cannot be something you continue to carry on for the rest of your life. It’s unhealthy and unfair for you, your husband, and your future children.

You are beautiful, courageous, independent, strong, empathetic, and a warrior!

I forgive you!